IY: A Writer’s Ego


I may have touched on this a while back but I wanted to talk about it again because I’m curious about it. Especially in myself. So this is a personal character study as much as a blog post to interest you fine readers. Sorry…

Ego. We all have one, on a small (or larger) level and as a writer, mine is larger than most. Not in a conceited and mean sort of way, but in a confident ‘hey-I-wrote-this-and-I-think-it’s-good-enough-that-other-people-might-want-to-pay-for-and-read-it sort of way. And we all have that. Or at least I hope we do… otherwise every single one of us is a literary and emotional masochist on some level. o.O

strutting cat meme

This cat… this cat KNOWS he’s bad-ass.

Queer thought.

So is it ego that keeps us doing what we do? And is this part of what sets us apart from mere mortals (:-p)? What is it in ourselves that we see and recognise that goads us to write and polish and publish? Especially now when the internet has opened the entire world in such a way that thousands of people can praise (or slam) your efforts without ever showing their faces?

And what happens when that ego gets bruised? Two weeks I talked about Angry Robot and the week after that I talked about Caladria and Fab Fables. Two very different projects/subjects, but both examples, I feel, of ego.

Fab Fables #1 Cover

YEY!

Yes, DSB is the one working on the Caladria gubbins, but you know how that works by now. So I feel it too and her successes are mine. That was an incredible boost to my ego; seeing that first issue go live and watching sales tick through (which is still happening by the way! ^_^). But Angry Robot’s (very kind and positive rejection) left me reeling for an entire weekend, mainly because nobody told me ‘Thanks, but no thanks’, for quite some time (‘Silk Over Razor Blades’ is a special case I suppose, but let’s gloss over that for now).

Is that ego? Is that just confidence? Or are the the same? Interchangeable? Or is it case of flying, blind narcissism brought abruptly back to earth?

On Wednesday I spent a good half hour talking about ‘Dead or Alive’, nattering non-stop because I was just so crazy excited about the words I’d produced. I was patting myself on the back over and over, for a particularly amusing line, which I’m still, even now, giggling over (sorry, I’m not gong to share it just yet, but just know it’s a good’un!). Ego? Or just relief at not producing dross?

-_-

So this post has been a lot of questions – sorry about that – but I’d love to know what you think about it all? Are us writerly types ego-maniacs, or just quietly confident in what we do, the same way a car salesman quotes his sales and satisfaction figures at a potential client?

What do you think?

what do you think, obama meme

Well?

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About Ileandra Young

I'm a thirty-*mumbles* year old (purple loving, cheese worshipping) author of fantasy, juggling a pair of beautiful twin boys with my burning desire to make up stories and write them all down. When I get the chance, I play games, listen to music, and in days long past I even ran a radio show. Though I occasionally write non-fiction, my heart lives in fantasy and my debut novel, Silk Over Razor Blades is now available through Amazon along with part two of the trilogy, Walking The Razor's Edge.
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5 Responses to IY: A Writer’s Ego

  1. I think all normal human beings contain a mix of egotistical confidence and cringing inferiority. I think most writers veer towards too much humility. I have friends who write beautifully, but lack the confidence to get their work out there. Bravo to you for having the courage to lay your work out for scrutiny.

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    • Maybe i should look at our that way instead of finding a way to make way I do a bad thing. Which I do a lot.
      It’s not conceit or ego… It’s bravery. 🙂

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    • Too much humility, certainly something I know of a lot of authors around me. And they shouldn’t be; they’re VERY good at what they do and deserve the praise.
      Ho hum, it’s all about that balance right? Ha, when someone finds it I hope they let me know. :p

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  2. Wayne says:

    I agree with Ruth – many of us struggle with lots of self-promotion, particularly if we have to do it in person. Social Media makes it a lot easier, but I still find it tough to stand up in a room full of people and say, “Hey, this thing I’ve just written is the best thing since tinned beans!”

    Anyone, like you Leah, that just gets on with it, keeps producing, being creative on an almost industrial scale, should be applauded and reap any and all rewards out there.

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    • Indeed. And this is exactly why DSB ’employs’ myself and Raven to do it for her. If we do all the promotion it almost feels like she’s not the one doing it. I imagine she’d describe it as putting on a mask.

      Cheers for stopping in!

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