I don’t do religion. You know that. The organised aspect of it and all the kerfuffle that comes with it makes my head twist. I can’t cope. So instead of praying to any deity, I pray/thank/laugh at/scream at you… the Universe.
Today, I actually have a list of things to thank you for. Things that, if I did follow any particular religion, I would thank god for. As it is, you get all the credit.
Thank you for:
My wonderful, beautiful, intelligent, funny children. They are 21 months old now and as their second birthday creeps closer and closer I find myself going into their room at night to watch them sleep. I touch their foreheads. I stroke their (totally wild!) hair and half strangle myself leaning over the cot to kiss them. I tell them I love them and go to bed some time later feeling like the luckiest person in the world. But it doesn’t end there, because I also want to thank you for…
Dave. Honest Dave. Kind, caring, handsome, understanding, creative, talented, loving Dave. I have no idea what I did to deserve someone like him in my life, but thank you for giving to him. If, as I suspect, I haven’t done anything to deserve him, then I’ll spend the rest of the time striving to make sure I do. Because he’s everything I could ask for and tonnes more than I don’t.
Relative. But I look back at what I have achieved in recent years and I am successful. I can say that honestly and proudly with my head held high. Successful mother. Successful writer. Successful in friendships. Successful in love. Every day I know full well a bomb could hit and take it all away from me, but while I have it (and even when I don’t) thank you.
The Freedom To Follow My Dreams
A big one. Writing books and selling them? What the holy freaking, hell! Really?! I’ve dreamed about that since I was fourteen years old. It’s been my one consistent obsession for sixteen years. That must mean something and now I’m there. Everything else is gravy.
Keeping Me Here
I could get hit by a bus tomorrow. That’s not my luck (I’m not going to win the lottery either; I’m kinda middling) but I could be living in a war torn country, or an area flooded and impossible to live in right now. Thank you for putting me somewhere I could gain an education, be safe in my ‘non traditional’ sexuality, raise my kids and receive the same opportunities as others despite my gender, race or (lack of) religion.
I’m grateful beyond measure and just wanted to take a moment to remind myself of that. Because… you know… it’s important.