A Disappointment, Honesty & Mah Goals – wc 17/03

angry smileyI’m pissed off at the moment. In the grand scheme of things it’s so small, but I’m still really angry. And I can’t get past it, so I’m going to tell you about it instead.

I ordered a banner from Fiverr at the beginning of the month. I’ve sung the praises of this place and continue to do so, but this is the first time I’ve experienced a disappointment.
I ordered a banner for this blog. The photo shoot with Grace happened so long ago, I really (REALLY) want to show you some of these pictures (because she did such an amazing job!) and my plan was to kick that off with a new banner. At the moment, the blog looks a lil boring with no colour to link the pages together.

I ordered the banner of 2 March and received the usual message giving me an estimated delivery time. 16 March. o.O Two weeks? Yikes, okay. But what I asked for was pretty involved, it would take a lot of work. Fine. I’ll wait two weeks.
hourglass image in black and white
Fast forward to yesterday, I receive a message at something daft like 1.30am (though time zones make it less daft, when I think about it) telling me that the designer was unable to fulfil my order because of equipment issues.

angry green monster with teeth - from OpenClipArt

My angry face returns. -_-

This was the first I heard of it. After two weeks. Two weeks in which I could have found someone else just as capable of doing the job for me. Probably sooner. So after two weeks of bouncing around, talking about it and generally being excited, I’ve been let down.

It happens. I know, but I consider this a reminder; you get what you pay for. If I’d paid hundreds of pounds for this design work, I would have been updated at every turn (or so I hope) and, if there were issues, I would have been told about it much sooner. Not on the projected day of delivery. What if it was a book cover? What if I had a looming deadline and now there was no chance to fix it? Needless to say, I won’t be using this person again, the trust is gone.

And this brings me onto what I actually wanted to talk about today (conveniently).


It’s a big deal and in the panel I managed to sit on during the States of Independence event on Saturday, there was a lot of talk about this. The panel was on integration of LGBTQ books, whether it’s necessary, has it been done already and do LGBTQ readers and authors even want it. Very interesting.

long nose smiley from openclipart.com


But one of the things that came up was the story of an author in the states who had social media accounts and author profiles claiming to be a lesbian author. This author wrote stories specific for a lesbian audience. Erotica I believe. It later transpired that this author was in fact a heterosexual man. Many readers who had faithfully followed books and series were immediately turned off and have since sworn off the books. Because they felt betrayed.

Now… from a personal point of view, I don’t care who writes my books. Man, woman, gay, straight, tall, short, fat, thin, religious or not, it doesn’t matter. So long as the story is good I’ll read it and probably tell people about it. But I don’t like to be deceived. Nobody does.

Nobody is asking you (as an author) to bare all and keep nothing to yourself, but in this age where corporate media does it’s absolute best to trick you and deceive you at every turn, it’s important to be upfront and honest. It’s not just part of a brand or a gimmick, but… just decent, you know?

I never pretend to be someone I’m not. That’s because I don’t like lying. Yes, in distancing myself from Raven I’ve drawn a line between different preferences, styles and desires, but it’s still all there. It’s still me.

I don’t know if I’m being clear any more. It’s too early for this and I haven’t had enough sleep. I guess what I’m trying to say is, while I’m working on ‘building my brand’ I will always been honest and upfront with you. Because that’s how I want to be treated.

Yeah. That’s it.
Goals now.

Last Week

Continue reading my review book (The Unsuspecting Mage) – at least three chapters
Done. I’ve slowed down somewhat. Mainly because I’ve watched a lot of Breaking Bad this week (finished the series, at last! It was AMAZING!) but also because I’ve been hammering away at SORB. Ho hum.

Read (and make notes on) at least ten chapters of SORB, post reverse edits
Yep. Done in fact. I suppose it’s a good sign that once I started reading I didn’t want to stop. I certainly did more than ten chapters to get to the end of the novel.
With each word I read I’m more and more excited. Not that I didn’t like previous versions, but this one, I really do believe is it. I’m there. I just need to pull it all together, give it a spit polish and send it to betas.
I wanted to do that in April, but I’m not sure that I’ll be able to. I’ll keep you posted, but, with all the other things on the go I’m not moving as fast as I initially wanted.

Read at least two posts from other bloggers each day
I’ve actually done more than that, on average. I forgot how wonderful all you bloggers are. How talented! I’ve been so wrapped up in my own work and what’s going on in my life that I forgot about you. I’m sorry about that. But I’m back now and making far more of an effort to keep in contact with you. πŸ™‚ And find more of you. One can never know enough other authors, right? πŸ˜‰

This week

  1. Finish reading my review book (The Unsuspecting Mage) – I’m there now. Let’s just get it done.
  2. Work on three chapters of SORB, neatening up the text based on read through notes.
  3. Read at least two posts from other bloggers each day
  4. Find another designer to work on my banner -_-

Remember I mentioned Liar’s League last week? The event got cancelled, due to illness, and has been moved to tonight. Fingers crossed we’ll have a sitter in place which will allow me to go. I think I’d really enjoy it.

If I do manage to go, I’ll tell you more about it next week. Or on Saturday. I think it’s my turn. *checks* Yes, it’s my turn. ^_^

Catch you all then, have a good week!
new ileandra signature,

About Ileandra Young

I'm a thirty-*mumbles* year old (purple loving, cheese worshipping) author of fantasy, juggling a pair of beautiful twin boys with my burning desire to make up stories and write them all down. When I get the chance, I play games, listen to music, and in days long past I even ran a radio show. Though I occasionally write non-fiction, my heart lives in fantasy and my debut novel, Silk Over Razor Blades is now available through Amazon along with part two of the trilogy, Walking The Razor's Edge.
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5 Responses to A Disappointment, Honesty & Mah Goals – wc 17/03

  1. 4amWriter says:

    Sorry to hear about the banner. Unfortunately, it’s true that we usually get what we pay for. But, so hard to be willing to dump a load of money into something when you’re still getting things rolling. This is one reason I have yet to go indie — without a strong, hugely popular platform, I’m afraid that spending all that money to self-publish might be wasted because I don’t have a huge audience to market to. But, maybe I’m being overly cautious and my real reason for not going indie is the fear of failure.

    I agree with you about deception; I think what you describe is an example of trickery just to get readers. There are a lot of authors out there with pen names and they do it for various reasons. I think about how JK Rowling was told to use just her initials because people will think JK is a man, and people will be more likely to read the Harry Potter books if they think a man wrote them. Is that deceptive? Who’s to say — but if anyone was p.o’d about it, she didn’t lose that many readers! πŸ™‚


    • She was another one who came up in the discussion, funnily enough. πŸ˜‰
      The general opinion in the room seemed to be that though she used initials, she never actually lied and created mail social media accounts and the like. So that was acceptable.
      Whereas this other chap was deliberately deceitful. *shrugs* Whichever way… you’re quite right; it hasn’t done her any harm!

      My indie costs go up and down at the moment. I’m fortunate enough to have people willing to read for me and to have found an editor who is incredibly talented and reasonable. But so far it’s all been (Raven’s) short stories. As soon as I send out that novel (my version of Ms Bossy, I suppose), it’s going to start racking up.
      I have too many plans for it and was hoping that sales from the shorts would finance the novel. Guess we’ll have to see how that pans out.
      There’s still time!


  2. Sorry about your banner. Hopefully you find someone else, and I bet you’ll like the end result even better! And it sounds like you’re making good progress and meeting your goals! Rock on! And keep it up!!


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