I don’t know if it’s simply the time of year, the weather, or actual brain-drain, but I seem to have very little to say these days.
I was having a conversation with some friends not too long ago and while it was very pleasant, I found that I didn’t have much to add. My brain was blank. Then I thought about it a bit more; no, actually my brain wasn’t blank, it was just filled with things that had nothing to do with the conversation. Did I have enough nappies in the changing bag? What time did Leon wake from his nap? Had Michael even HAD a nap? What should I cook for dinner that night? Has one of these boys pooped and do I need to think about changing them? Maybe they’re hungry and could use a nice fruity snack…. It went on and on.
And that’s when I realised; I have actually run out of things to say! Unless I’m talking about babies, or milk, or poo or breastfeeding, my brain just can’t cope any more. I have become ‘A Mum.’
Now, before you say it, I realise that I’ve been a mum for quite some time, almost a year, and that the core of ‘becoming a mum’ is having a child. But there is so much more to it and I learn that more and more as the days go by.
I’m a mum because there are people who come before me. I’m a mum because there are people I look after. I’m a mum because there are people I see every day. I’m a mum because these people that I’m talking about, depend on me to feed them, shelter them and love them and because there is nothing I want more in the world than to do exactly that.
Still.. I wish a had a bit more to say these days! O.o
Has that ever happened to you? Has your life ever been so utterly consumed by one thing that there is no space for anything else in your brain? Tell me about it… ^_^