A Submission Update


So… I’m back, it was great and even while I was away I managed to do some work. Well… by work I mean answering/reading the emails linked to this name.

Anyway, so while I’m in the midst of playing all these wonderful games I find an email from Mitzi Szereto. Remember, I talked about her call for submissions for the erotic Thrones of Desire anthology? Well it was a response to my submission!

Unfortunately I can’t say that my story was selected to be included in the anthology, or that I received any feedback for the piece. Its not quite what she’s looking for, according to the email, which is better than being told its terrible and should never have been submitted. Lol.

This does mean, however, that I’m free (though I may well have been before) to put an excerpt here for your reading pleasure! The whole story is 5,669 words, but I’m not going to put the whole thing here. I’ll post an excerpt in this post and then a slightly longer one in the Excerpt section of the site for you.

So… for now, enjoy a piece of ‘Owned.’

Rawen watched Trillian vanish and slowly arched one eyebrow. By the time he looked back to the pair of thrones, the Princess had already leapt down from the platform, moving with the delicate grace of a forest deer. Her silken skirts swirled around her hips, hinting at the body beneath which, like most women of Montsho, was no doubt powerful, though deceptively slender.

Princess Glacya stopped before Rawen and tucked her fingers beneath his chin. He lifted his head for her, careful to set his gaze on her left ear even while she stared deeply into his face.

“Open.” She snapped.

Rawen dropped his jaw and felt a wave of bitter disgust as the Princess jabbed her fingers into his mouth, flicking and tugging at his teeth. His lips tingled as he fought the urge to snap his jaws together. He loosened his neck and allowed her to turn his head from side to side, even lifting his arms in response to a shove at his elbow.

Glacya stalked around him, muttering to herself as she stroked his shoulder, his bicep, his left pectoral. Slender fingers whispered over his skin, hot digits a stark contrast to the chill he felt right down to his marrow.

When the Princess touched her hands against the thin, leather cloth slung low on his hips, Rawen gritted his teeth. He closed his eyes as heat flushed his cheeks and silently begged she would not continue.

With a loud giggle, Glacya tugged at the cords on the cloth, loosening the knot and yanking it away.

Rawen swallowed a gasp, forced his eyes open and arranged his face into an expression of polite interest.

“Very nice.” Princess Glacya continued her invasive search, pressing herself into his front and reaching around with both hands to grip the muscled contours of his backside. “He’s strong, Mother!” She cooed. “A real stallion!”

Eager hands stroked round his body, caressing his hips before finding the space where his legs joined.

A moan, quickly cut off, slipped from Rawen’s lips as he felt the Princess wrap both hands around his penis. He bit his lip, clenching his hands into fists.

“And he’s hard. This makes him the most keen so far.”

“At last some good news!” The Queen’s voice carried relief. “What’s your name, boy?”

Rawen opened his mouth at once, but it still took several tries to wet his lips enough to allow speech. “Rawen, my Queen.”

“And where are you housed?”

“The stables, my Queen. I work with the horses and hunting dogs.”

The Princess made small, happy sounds at the back of her throat. “Good with animals. Wonderful traits for a donor… and look at this fabulous hair! The dark, curly type is so rare… I want him.”

Rawen flinched as though punched in the gut. “I… I am most honored Princess Glacya.” Deep inside, he became aware that his heart was racing a furious tattoo in his chest. Blood roared in his ears. Tiny beads of sweat rolled down his bare back.

He forced a smile.

“As you should be, Stable Boy.”

Rawen tried to bow, but the Princess was still holding onto him and her nearness prevented him getting very far. Instead, as he bent, Rawen inhaled a scented mouthful of thick, golden hair.

Quickly straightening, he pressed his bound hands over his heart, remembering protocol despite the quiver in his knees. “My body to please and satisfy you.”

“Oh, you please me, Rawen.” She said his name slowly, rolling it along her tongue as though testing the taste. “And very soon you’ll satisfy me too.”

At last, she stepped back, adjusting her skirts and fluffing her hair. She glanced at the leather vanity cloth and caught it on the end of her shoe. “You won’t need this,” she declared, flicking it upwards with a swift kick. As the leather descended, she caught it in one deft hand and folded it neatly. “You have one day. Finalize your affairs – such as they are – and be ready for your summons. I may call for you sooner, so be ready.”

With that, she turned on her heel and stalked back to the throne, bending down to retrieve a thin band of twisted metal from a low table.

She cracked it open with a key hanging from a chain slung around her slender neck. Her eyes shone with fierce pleasure as she returned to Rawen, holding the band up for him to see.

“With this collar,” she exclaimed, raising her voice to ring through the room, “I mark my chosen Donor. You may speak with him, you may touch him – if you must – but know that he is mine. Those who would risk my wrath need only touch him in that place marked as my own.”

Rawen growled under his breath as her free hand pressed into his groin.

A polite smattering of applause filled the Hall.

Glacya held up the collar. “Lift your hair.”

Though Rawen could think of nothing he wanted to do less, he did.

The band of metal was cold and heavy, a weight on his shoulders that buckled his knees. With great effort he straightened his back.

The ends clicked together.

Glacya reached round and used her key to lock the collar into place. She then tucked it back into her bodice. Her smile was as fierce as her eyes. “Mine,” she hissed, pushing up on tip toe to press her lips against his.

Then she was gone, returning to her throne to whisper excitedly with her mother.

Rawen watched her and felt despair form a lump in his stomach.

Before he could give much thought to it, two spears clashed together before his face. “Let’s go.” The gruff female voice at his right hand side was spiked with impatience. “You’ll see her again soon enough.”

Shuffling round, Rawen trudged out of the throne room, the weight of the collar slowing his steps.

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Bonus Blog: Conception!


No! Before you get the wrong idea, no, I’m not talking about the twins. For once. :p I’m talking about the convention I’ve just come back from, which goes by the name Conception.Conception Banner LogoFunnily enough, I got enough yuks out of the name the first time I heard it and now, however many years on it just seems even funnier than it was then. Time has matured the joke rather than made it boring.

Anyway, down on the south coast, Conception is a gaming convention catering to the likes of RPG, Board Games and LARPers alike. Nothing at all like the LARPs of Herofest, incidentally, but it was certainly at Conception that I got my first LARP experience.

Anyway, picture seven rapid game addicts piling into a three bedroom lodge from Wednesday to Monday to cram in as much gaming, alcohol and bacon as possible into five days.

IT WAS AWESOME!

It always is. Always and this year was no exception at all. For the very first time I actually bought a string of new games (probably too many, but hey its my last Con for a while) new dicepile o dice from wiki commons (of course!) and enjoyed a bunch of games. No new roleplay systems, but I did enjoy what I got to play. It was another year that I didn’t manage to play Cthulhu or Feng Shui, but considering the fact that I had to spend a good portion of one night figuring out how to escape a whipped cream pit trap (!!!) I think it went pretty well.

I got to play a string of new board games I’ve not experienced before as well. Order of the Stick I think was my particular favourite new game. It was a good few hours of game play as well, but its given me a brand new love for the comic which, I’m glad to be able to read again.

I’m not going to go into all the details of the Con – I don’t have the time I’m afraid, and I’m too ill – but its given me a chunk of new pleasant memories to enjoy for the rest of my life and to hold close next year when I probably won’t be able to go.

So… thank you very much everyone! I had a an absolute ball! I’m sure I’ll see a few of you on Friday for the next game session. :p

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Flash Fiction: The Saint


Dave said something funny the other day. I was showing him something that I wrote that lunch time at work, after just putting down Assassin because I needed to rest my brain for a second (and finish swallowing what I was chewing without throwing up).

Anyway I remember that he read it, looked at me and said; ‘you’ve already started writing about protecting children? With a gun?!’

It was funny (haha) at the time, and now that I think back on it, its funny (strange) because… I didn’t plan for children. I absolutely did not want them and now there’s two brewing inside me, waiting for freedom. And pretty much all I think about is protecting them. Continuing work so I have money to feed them. Continuing to write and hopefully making an income (even if its small) to support them. Reading to them, so they learn the value of books. Teaching them all the wonderful things my parents taught me along with all the amazing stuff I learned on my own.

Its all I think about!

But when I wrote this piece I wasn’t really thinking about my babies. In fact, before I give you a spoiler; here’s what I wrote. See if you can guess what I was thinking about before you reach the end.

The Saint

The gun was small enough to vanish into the palm of her hand. A tiny .25 Beretta with a short muzzle and sleek, silver finish. Rachel stroked it, enjoying the thrill of power which shot through her like a thousand electric volts.
“I’m ready,” she whispered.
Beside her; small, shivering, face streaked with tears, a six year old boy tugged lightly on her skirt. “Do we have to go, Mummy?”
Rachel smiled. “They’re expecting us, darling, but we won’t stay long.”
“I don’t like it in there; they hurt me.”
The smile faltered. “I know, James, but I’m here now. They’ll never hurt you again.” She climbed out of the car, marching round the stationary vehicle to help her son out of the child seat. “Come on.”
Reluctant, but ever obedient, James slipped down to the ground. He put out his hand and Rachel took it, engulfing her son’s tiny fingers with her own longer, slender ones.
Hand in hand, they approached the church.

Did you get it?

Just that morning I’d read a news article about arrests linked to years of child abused in the Catholic church in Europe. I’d also been reading Khaos Komix, a comic I’ve been following for a good few years, which has reached heart rending levels of emotional turmoil as one of the characters recounts his childhood. And then, to cap it off, I’d just stopped at the end of a chapter in Assassin where some poor sod had his head caved in by the concentrated blast of a shot gun.

*snerk* It seemed natural somehow to put the two together. What do you think?

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80 Post Challenge – Post 47


Describe your note-taking style and habits


Oh dear. This question assumed right from the off that I have a style! Well… sorry to disappoint, but I really don’t. I scribble things down in such a willy-nilly fashion that I can’t even call it a style.

Habit certainly; I used to have those for sure. I remember at Uni, I would do everything in my power to make sure my notes were neat, well numbered and easily referenced so that when revision time came by, I could easily come back and find what I wanted. Little did I realise that I spent so much time doing this, that I didn’t actually do very much actual note taking. This meant that everything I had, which was beautifully neat, and ordered and structured, had no substance whatsoever. This made it useless for revising. Ho hum.

I still have some of my notes; all bundled up in folders that I can’t bare to throw away because they represent three years of my academic life. Other than that, I can’t understand why I’m so sentimental about them – I really shouldn’t be! – but I can’t stand the thought of getting rid of them. I suppose I’ll have to at some point ; sooner rather than later, since the twins are going to want/need the room where most of my junk is held.

Anyway, these days, taking notes usually means I’ve been caught unprepared and I don’t have my phone to hand. Or I’ve had a marvellous idea that just can’t wait to be written at home. To solve this problem, I do have a notebook that goes everywhere with me. If its not in my bag, I don’t tend to leave the house until it is – seriously! – because you never know when you might want/need to write down something important. Its happened to me too many times before; ideas or thoughts that I’ve lost forever because my short term memory is too rubbish to hold onto them. So the book helps me put these things down in a form I won’t loose.

Thing is, finding them afterwards is kinda tricky. I started the notebook with several blank pages, so I could ensure a working contents page. I even numbered the first half of it so I could easily refer to what was what. But as time when on, I just went from neatly penned thoughts to hastily scrawled half-sentences on any scrap of empty page I could find. So these days my notes look like this:
Senseless handwritten scrawls in my working notebook
Style? Hmmm, cram it in wherever there’s space.
Habit? Scrawl utterly illegibly so nobody but me can read my notes, ensuring that I am safeguarded from future embarrassment should anybody stumble across my half baked, poorly expressed thoughts.

 

 

 

 

My 80 Post Challenge is brought to you with help from Tom Slatin’s 80 Journal Writing Prompts.

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Junk Food; Boys vs Girls


Yeah I know, I know. Controversial as hell, but its not what you think.

A couple of weeks ago I bought a bag of crisps and a yummy chocolate bunny thing (yes… the Easter shit is already out… in January! – do NOT get me started!). Anyway, the girl beside me – I’m at work – is eating these crispy, curly, fake crisp things.

Now, don’t get me wrong I enjoy my Snack a Jacks as much as the next person, but that day (and several others around, before and after then) I just wanted a bag of crisps.

Anyway, she finishes up the packet, looks at the back and, with an expression of surprise in her eyes, shows me this. Now… its not immediately odd (unless you’re like me). Its just the ‘please put your crap in the bin’ picture, right? But look closely. Notice that the figure has flicked up hair, a ridiculously narrow waist and a skirt which inescapably identifies it as female. Or a dude in a kilt.

I looked at it. And then I looked at it again. And then (because I’m insane) I kicked off a rant that initiated a conversation of almost an hour.

Because… honestly… didn’t the picture, once upon a time, look like this? Yes it did! Don’t argue with me; of course it did!

And, if you really want to be fussy about it, when the hell did the little figure start to look like this?! I’ll bet you’ve never noticed it either.

But herein lies the debate. Are we being told, through the foods we eat, that only girls like the light, fluffy, low calorie, tasteless crap, and that only men like the fat-filled, crunchy treats that are potato crisps? Ha, I bloody hope not. And what about the chocolate? The little generic, angular figure was on the back of my chocolate bunny; surely, if anything was going to have a woman on the back of it, a chocolate bar should? Chocolate and ice cream; a woman’s domain! But isn’t that just as bad? Particularly when Yorkie’s slogan was (and possibly still is) ‘not for handbags.’

Grr.

I dunno… it bothered me far more than it should have done, but what can I say? I’m a bit of a freak like that. And… while constantly thinking about ensuring that my babies grow up free of society’s restrictions and preconceptions with regards to gender (read this article, its BRILLIANT!) seeing these images on the back of packs of junk food just set me off.

Bear in mind that I’m the woman who is seriously considering not finding out the gender of my babies, just so I don’t accidentally tell anybody else, as a means to avoid getting shit-loads of pink or blue clothes as gifts. -_- Because you know (you KNOW!) the second I say my twins are boys or girls, people will consider that when buying gifts. Even on a unconscious level. Lots of people say they won’t… but fuck it- I know better.

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