This feels like it should be a post for Raven. However, I’m the one freaking out, so after much deliberation I’ve decided to take on the subject.
Raven is working through her content edits for ‘Slippers & Chains‘ right now. I’m waiting for the ‘Silk Over Razor Blades‘ edits to come back from the double team that is Louise and Karen over at LionheART. Since we share a brain, I get to look in on what Raven is doing as result of edits suggested by Jenn from the team at Breathless Press. I also get to see the fantastic effect those changes are having on what was already an awesome story.
Something as simple as delving deeper into the focal character’s POV can have a massive effect on a scene. Add (or removing) a dialogue tag and replacing it with an action tag can bring life to an otherwise stale and/or stagnant line within the text.
Small things. Simple things. Things that, in truth, most authors with experience learn to catch. And even if they don’t, that’s what editors are for, right? Because an author can’t catch everything, or make their work perfect without help. That’s just not possible (and if it is, don’t tell me – I’m hard enough on myself as it is).
My concern – and I know most if not all of you will share this concern at some point in your writing career – is that what I come to learn from this editing experience won’t come soon enough to help SORB. That Raven will have a glowing master piece of erotic-drama with liberal splashes of humour and I’ll have a dead-weight urban fantasy with flat characters and clunky prose.
I’ve worked so hard on the novel I know that’s not the case. I know that. I also know that some people will disagree since, as with everything else, liking or not liking a novel is often down to a matter of taste.
But I’m scared anyway. I’m scared that I’ve not given myself enough space and time to do the story justice. That I’ve not gone deep enough. That I haven’t explored my characters well enough or given the reader the tools to understand them they way I do. Even now, as I type, I can think of several scenes that I would tweak or change utterly to give a better view into the focal characters.
And I don’t know how to deal with that. I don’t know how to handle the idea that the novel is ‘done’ but for the suggestions made by Karen. And if, at this point, I’m already freaking out, what’s going to happen when the piece is for sale and I’m picking away at ‘Walking The Razor’s Edge‘?
At this point, I’ll admit that this post is really about asking for you to put my mind at ease. To tell me that you’ve felt the same way and that you understand. The feeling will never go away – there will always be a sense of ‘oh, I could have done that so much better.’ That’s just the path we choose in opting to be creatives. But know that I’m not alone would be mega helpful right now. If you wouldn’t mind.Not a good week for goals. Not writing ones, anyway. Maybe because I’m freaking out about the upcoming edits so much, I’m doing a really bad job of actually doing other things that are useful. I’ll show you.
Spend at least two nights NOT working*
Yes. I watched films or went to bed early. I feel good for having done so, but balancing nights off against working days apparently is something I’m yet to master.
Get at least three early nights sleep*
Earlier but not early. Two nights I got upstairs by 10:30pm but most nights I was turning off the phone by 11:30pm. Not great, but better than collapsing into bed after midnight every day.
Decide what I’m going to do about cover artists
Done. Bloody hard but I’m thrilled to say that I’m working with Dave Johnson who always does fantastic work for Fox Spirit. I’m looking forward to having some mock-ups to look at over the next week or so.
Complete some more story outlines for Fab Fables
Yes, got two now, but I need to cross reference them with the system data we already have before I can point authors to them. Hold tight guys, won’t be long now.
Pick a story to submit somewhere (and submit if no work required)
Found one but it needs work. So nope. Aaah well. I’ll put that work on the ‘do later when other stuff is done’ list.
- Locate three blogs that allow (or are requesting) guest posts and approach them with regards to me and SORB (trying a different tactic with this marketing plan lark – previous goals weren’t specific enough)
- Choose three social media platforms upon which to focus going forward (choice is between Goodreads, Twitter, Facebook, LinkedIn, Google+ and peer blogs)
- From remainder of list, chose two secondary social media platforms for overspill work (ie – if there is time once main three are targeted)
- Write up small article for submission to Writing Magazine and/or Writer’s Forum about SORB
- Spend at least two nights NOT working and combine them with EITHER an early night or a CrossFit/Roller Derby workout*
This week I’m actually going to do it. I’m going to take one of these goals per day and get them done. No more slacking. No more worrying over something to the point that it cripples my ability to function. This week I just do it. I get back on form.
*I’m keeping this ‘non writing’ goal in because it’s a health thing and my health has a direct affect on what I’m able to achieve career wise.