Too Scared To Share – (& I Haz Planz 14/08)

Both Ileandra and I have been really lucky over the past year. Things we’ve done and works we’ve submitted have been picked up/accepted/short listed at a rate neither of us could have ever imagined. No, we’ve not won any competitions, or signed any six figure deals, but we’ve done extremely well in the space 18 months.
I, more than her, want to share. I’m so happy about the things that we’ve done that I just want to spread that joy around.

It’s not about gloating. It’s not even about getting a pat on the back. The desperate desire to share is far more about showing people that if we can do it, so can they.

I have a pair of 2 year old boys. Twins, if you didn’t know. I gave up my job to stay home with them and have been writing in the chunks of free time they give me. I’m knackered all the time, I barely go out, and when I do it’s for writing (with the Phoenix Writers) or roller derby (because it’s the only exercise I get across the week). I don’t do social stuff any more. But I’m still getting stuff done.

And yet, sometimes, I feel guilty about sharing. A common joke at the Phoenix Writers (and I know it IS a joke, so don’t deliberately misunderstand me here) is that when the chair asks for news, the group looks at me. Straight at me. Sometimes I have a success to share, sometimes I don’t. When I do, I’m pleased to share, when I don’t, I laugh about it and say ‘maybe next time.’

But some weeks I feel a hint of resentment jealousy coolness in the response. And sometimes I actually hear ‘Oh, what is it this time?’ And it’s not vindictive. It isn’t. I’ll say it again because the group just isn’t like that. But I wonder, in those moments, if I should keep my mouth closed and the success to myself.

So far I haven’t. The question is asked, so I answer. But I’m curious about what you guys think. Is this a situation in which you’d stay quiet, or would you say ‘screw it’ and talk about as many successes as you could? Is there any reason to feel bad about sharing what you’ve achieved? Does it matter what other people may or may not think? Should you keep quiet as an attempt to avoid making others feel bad/inadequate/unsuccessful? What do you think?

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Right, mooooving on!

Last Week
Putting aside all the bouncing around I was doing I also managed to get a fair amount done. Let’s see….

~Finish fine edits on ‘Eric & Morgan’
Done. I actually read the piece aloud in 500 word chunks and made notes as I went along. Now I need to listen to the files as I make the changes. This is what I would have liked to do with Slippers & Chains, but the story was just too long to treat that way. Maybe I can do it with the next one.

~Write broad outline for next ‘Slippers & Chains’ story (in preparation for chapter by chapter break down)
Done. Apparently done weeks months ago! Going through my notes for S&C Sugar Dust, I found a neat section put aside for ‘Second Base’, that being the name tentatively put aside for S&C2. So… that was easy. Thank goodness. ^_^

~Print ‘Simone & Mr Sharpe’ in preparation for deep edits (once ‘Eric & Morgan’ is done)
Eeeerm. Also done. o.O I had been borrowing a printer and a few months back my generous friend took it back. Not that I blame him; I’d had it for nearly two years. But when I knew he was coming to take it, apparently I printed everything I thought I’d need on paper for the foreseeable future. Ha! Talk about foresight. Go me!

~Choose freebie for my next newsletter
Also done. In fact, I have a series now so the newsletter is well populated for the next couple of months. It should give me and the readers a laugh actually, so if you’ve not signed up yet, now is the time to do so. šŸ™‚

This Week
I suppose I can relax a smidgy bit. I’ve got things I want to do, but it’s all moving along at a fair pace. I think we’ll be looking at an October release for ‘Eric & Morgan’ at this rate. Wooohoo!

  1. Make sure my newsletter goes out on time using the new host client
  2. Transfer ‘Eric & Morgan’ fine edits back to Scrivener
  3. Hit the beta reader trail

In fact, I’ll open this up to you guys now. Do you fancy reading an ARC copy of ‘Eric & Morgan’, the latest in my ‘Meeting Each Other’ series? It’s a romantic MM pairing nudging towards the 6,000 words mark. The copies I send out will be available in .doc, .mobi and .epub files. I’d love to get some feedback from the general readers as well as my usual betas. I’ll even add your name to the list of thanks I make with each new story. I’ll call you my Beta B Team. šŸ˜‰

Fancy that? Ping me a message in the comments or use the Contact page to reach me and I’ll send you out the file.
Cheers! x

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About Raven ShadowHawk

I take great pleasure in writing erotica and am merely one side of the proverbial coin. My other half, 'Ileandra Young' writes fantasy and the occasional comedy piece. My six-part series 'Meeting Each Other' is available in full, through Amazon and Smashwords while my debut novella 'Sugar Dust' is now re-released (!) available through Amazon via Little Vamp Press.
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2 Responses to Too Scared To Share – (& I Haz Planz 14/08)

  1. I’ve gradually been getting used to the idea of people asking about my writing and whether I’ve had any success. But it doesn’t come up very much, in part because I don’t see a lot of people, and because I don’t tell everyone that I’m a writer. I guess that’s two things I should change. šŸ™‚

    It’s goof to see that you’re making progress though!


    • Thanks.
      I figure the more people I tell the more comfortable I’ll eventually feel. I told the doctors and nurses in the hospital yesterday and got such bright looks. I enjoy that look on people’s faces so I’m going to make an effort to see it more often. šŸ™‚


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