Turn to an entry in your journal or diary from a year or more ago. What has changed and what has stayed the same since then?
Hehe, I was looking through my diary for 2004. I kept a diary religiously for almost seven years and I still have all of them locked up in a chest somewhere. I’ll need to crack out the rest of them at some point; if I recall, some of the things I used to share with those pages would make me cringe now. I was a particularly sex starved teenager, from what I can tell. Heh, so I guess I can tell you first of all, that that has definitely changed. :p
No… in 2004, the entry I read was me getting ready to going mapping for my university project. I had written about work (I was in Asda at the time) and how glad I was to have so much time off. I was talking about my preparations (my ‘sanity-keeping items’) which included hard copies of Gaea, Silk Over Razor Blades (such as it was at the time), If Only, HouseMates (probably episodes 1-6), Mathias and Antonio and Michelle (now known as Clash Of The Animal Kings). All that, and then I took with me three PSone games, 15 DVDs and more CDs than I ever realised I owned. And probably three reams of paper and pens.
I didn’t have a computer at the time. I didn’t have a laptop. There was no way for me to write except by hand and I wanted to make damn sure that I could.
That hasn’t changed. When I went to Tenerife this year, I had about three notebooks with me so I could write my hand. I didn’t get much done, just some lime yaoi, but it was enough to stop me going nuts in the quite points of the holiday.
Since then though, my writing has become far more serious. That’s a definite big change. And I’ve finished uni. I have a full time job, I have a boyfriend who I live with. Lots of positive things that have happened since 2004 which is great to put in perspective.
I still roleplay though. I still write (obviously). I’m still in contact with some of the people I went on that trip with (one of them has just had a baby! – she’s going to be an AWESOME mummy!). Its funny looking back. I like being able to see how much I’ve grown. In fact, the things I talk about and think about and care for have matured too. I’m glad of that.
The particular entry I’m thinking of was all about worrying whether I’d still have a big bum after six weeks marching up and down those hills, and whether or not The Ice Wolf Tavern would be okay without me. Oh and I was also concerned about money. I suppose that is one of the things that never, ever changes. Money is always a worry unless you’re J K Rowling. And its worse now than it was then, though I’m definitely in a better position now than I was then.
My 80 Post Challenge is brought to you with help from Tom Slatin’s 80 Journal Writing Prompts.