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I can hear some of you saying that I shouldn’t be that dramatic, but I can’t help it. Perhaps its not so bad as to need a tombstone (okay, its not that bad at all), but knowing the date your life is going to change forever is like knowing when you’re going to die; nothing can make you ready for it.
I had an appointment at with the clinic on Monday. Its taken two days just to settle myself to the point that I can talk about what we discussed.
Some of you may know that ‘full term’ for a lady pregnant with twins is 37 weeks, not 40. That means my due date is less than a week from today. Of course my babies can arrive any time they feel like between now and the actual date, but I now have an appointment at the hospital for when I’m to be induced.
May 4th 2012.
The date my life is going to change forever. Again.
As if finding out I was pregnant wasn’t quite enough, the fact that I’ll soon be able to hold my babies in my arms, see their faces and touch their skin is becoming more and more of a reality. In fact, it could very well be as soon as next Friday… 4th May….
I feel really, really strange. In fact, I feel like its knowing when my life is going to end. And its not like that at all. Its knowing when the most incredible thing in the world is going to happen to me; me who probably doesn’t even deserve it. To begin with… who didn’t even want it! I’m going to be a mother. I’m going to have the chance to do for two young lives what my mother has done for me since the day I popped out of her. The sense of responsibility, excitment and fear that comes with that is unlike anything I have ever known. Nothing is going to top it. Ever.
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I’m not really sure what else to say. I don’t have the words for it, which, seems to make this blog post somewhat redundant, but its not. Basically, what I’m saying is, come Friday 4th May, I’ll be heading into hopsitial to meet my babies. Blog posts will continue as normal since they’re all scheduled up, including those from the kind people who have been good enough to provide guest posts for me (remember if you would still like to contribute, I’d be honoured and grateful!).
I’ll make updates as often as is possible/feasible to keep you in the loop. I want to share this with you guys as much as I want to share with my growing family. Then, when things calm down, I’ll let you know that too and come off scheduled posts. 🙂
Oh… and I nearly forgot; while its not quite my birthday, if the procedure goes as quickly as I might hope, then my babies will be born on Star Wars Day. How awesome is that?!
Writing: A Conversation Without Interruptions 
I wasn’t aware that twins were born sooner than single babies. Is that common knowledge or am I just being dumb?
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I think most folk don’t know actually. At least people have an inkling that multiples may come early, but unless people have experienced it themselves, they don’t know about the 37 week marker.
The way I see it, if I had to do another full month of this I’d have to be wheeled to the hospital in a barrow, so I’m quietly quite glad that its so soon. 🙂
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I can imagine they must be quite a load to carry about! Hope everything goes well for you.
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Many thanks. 😀
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There’s less room basically and apparently higher risks if left to go “over” so hospitals like to play it a bit safe.
Not long now! I hope everything goes really well for you xx
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Actually ‘full term’ is 37 weeks, twins or not. I believe they just induce sooner with twins. 🙂
Good luck to you…it really is a completely life altering experience, so I can see why you’d be looking at it as an end of life thing. It isn’t the end of life, but it is the end of ‘this life’. And you won’t totally understand it until you have those babies in your arms.
I’ll be thinking of you on May 4th! Smart move, getting blog posts scheduled (I probably should have done the same). I hope everything goes smoothly for you and I’m looking forward to your updates when you have time!
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End of ‘this life’ is what Dave keeps saying. Its as true a description as any other and I’m glad to hear it again.
Thanks Em! x
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I kind of know how you feel as I had a date with my little guy (never made it to the date). I think it’s just the anticipation of the unknown. You know they’re coming but the whole thing is such a new experience and big change that you’re not sure what to think. Just be prepared for anything, especially at the hospital. If I could give you any advice it would be to trust your doctors and nurses and to let go of control; I know that’s hard…at least it was for me. 🙂
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Letting go of the control… I’m soooo not good at that. You’re right though; the doctors and nurses and midwifes deliver hundreds of babies; they’ll certainly know better than me.
I’m not great with the UNKNOWN (totally feels like it should have its own font size too), but mainly because this is big. I just have to remember women have been doing it for… well… forever!
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Yeah i wish I had some magic words to help you feel better but I know I was getting more anxious as time slipped by. Trust me though, once you see your babies you’ll forget all about this.
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Thanks Vanessa, I know, quietly inside that I’ll be fine. 🙂
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Best of luck–I’ll be thinking about you and the babes.
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Thankuuu! ^_^
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Ha! May the 4th be with you too.
It will be amazing. You’ll be a natural. You’ll see.
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Ta, Erin. x
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Best wishes for the happy event! My sister scheduled her twins’ induction for two days AFTER a Paul McCartney concert she was attending. I can’t imagine how she was comfortable in a chair in a concert hall! And what would she would have done if the babies decided the time was right at the concert….?
Enjoy!
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Haha, funnily enough a friend bought me tickets to the theatre for April 30. She bought them as a birthday present well before I knew I was pregnant and now she’s twitching (and so am I actually!) because I might not be able to go!
I figure I’ll just cross my legs until the show is over… :p
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I hope everything goes smoothly and mommy and babies are home soon, my twins were born May 4, a whole month earlier than expected (Doc had said June 4, but anything was possible) read a book on baby massage if you get the chance ( or google it) it is really great for babies
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I hear a lot about baby massage; it seems a really good way to bond. Can’t wait to try it.
🙂
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